I’ve become a hermit. I barely have anyone to talk to or be around anymore, even if I make new friends they somehow just disappear. Another thing that bothers me which relates to the no friends thing, is I’m always at home. It’s gotten to the point where the only times I go out are to buy things I don’t really need just to keep me entertained…like the 5 guinea pigs I now own. I lent the male to my friend’s bf to look after and he killed it, so I now have a widow with two babies and another male and female to look after now.

Although I don’t eat a lot during the day, I’ve started to lose my apatite in the afternoon. I haven’t eaten dinner since Saturday night. I’m getting a lot more tired too, I come home from work in the afternoon or at night and instead of eating, I sit around for a little bit and then decide sleep is a better option. I don’t really have much of an apatite when I wake up either, but I force myself to eat something small.

There’s nothing..

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308th post!

I’m ready for winter to be over and done with, I just want to sit in the sun and go swimming already without becoming sick from it. I wanna be able to sit outside of a night-time and not have the shakes. I’m looking forward to Spring.

I spent half the day at the beach yesterday, building sand castles, foraging for unique shells, walking through ice-cold water and exfoliating (my legs are so damn smooth now). I forget how much I like the beach when I spend most of my time in this ice palace we call a home. The water was so cold my toes were white, and after 5 minutes under the heat vents in my car all but one had come back to life. It took ages for it to get a good blood circulation going again.  Anyway the day was great, it felt like last year again, no worries, fighting, or lost friendships. Just fun.

I’m back to my boring routine of sharing the day between inside – frozen and outside in the warm sun, watching my dogs fight over a seed block for my guinea pigs. That was the funniest part of my day…so far. Let’s just hope that work will be more eventful.

Oh, and thanks.

:)

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Okay, finally writing a blog.

Where do I even begin? So much has happened in these past couple of weeks, I think I’m starting to get back to reality, I know what I want now and it’s nothing I’ve had before. I’m done dealing with old issues, and waiting all the time for a response. I’m someone who relies on certainty, before I do most things, I’m starting to realize how annoying that really is when I have to deal with people who take forever or never to let me know what’s going on.

I’m becoming less and less of a ‘people’ person.

I’ve recently decided maybe I don’t want my tattoo anymore, I’m really on the fence about it now. Maybe a little more thought into it before I get it, I do however still have an unholy obsession with piercings. I want yet another, I just have to figure out which ear and where. Unless I get it done somewhere else. Hmm…

I have two guinea pigs now. They’re going to have babies in a couple of weeks, that’s what I’m hoping anyway.

Not much of a blog.

:)

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Dayyyuuuuuuummmmm! 

I can’t sleep so instead I’m blogging and chatting to old friends on my favourite site :/ seriously I hate Facebook. I feel slightly better tonight, mainly because I’ve spent the evening bitching with Mister B. We both come to the conclusion that we hate it, but it’s very good for the soul or actually it’s just good sometimes. Also I was snooping around this afternoon and found out some really amazing information, I only like it when I’m right about something good, not something bad but oh well I’m not really caring so much this time. :)

I found out the other day that my little beast is broken (only slightly), the water pipe for my back window has cuts from pinching on something inside the frame. So Mister Baxter leaks water from the bottom of my boot door instead of the top like a normal car. It’s all good because i can just get a new pipe for him and he’ll be all normal again.

Grrr, etc.

:)

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Why is it every time I talk with you I have to keep myself from doing something destructive? It starts out fine and then somewhere along the line an argument of some sort breaks out. It’s fucked, maybe I shouldn’t even talk to you anymore I mean sure it’s not like we talk that much anyway anymore but I’ll just stop all together, I’ve had enough of this silly charade. 

I haven’t posted anything in a while and I don’t really have much else to blog about. I’ve discovered my new love for piercings, but only in my ears for now because I’m too much of a sook for anywhere else (4 in each ear and now one in my right tragus). I’ve had some lovely weekends lately thanks to a certain Miss A and Miss E, loads of fun with dinners and shopping and movies and yeah trying to cook things like pink pancakes. I never thought I’d enjoy watching Girls of the Playboy mansion, and no there was barely any nudity, it’s all just about them and it’s funny to watch what they do and the shit that comes out of there mouth. It’s all ridiculous but very entertaining.

Other than that I guess it’s been work and the occasional visit to Tannum every now and then, just for some nice company and for something different.

I feel sick and shitty towards certain people this week.

:)

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I won’t lie, this weekend was nice. Even if I didn’t get to chill with everyone that I wanted to. I never remember everything anymore, but I do remember that I drank (not very much at all), danced heaps, listened to A LOT of gaga (still do), staying up until the next morning, had a d&m even though it was mostly reminiscing and sorting stuff out, there were quite a lot of sad/awkward moments too, but that’s just because I’m weird and I cause those, plus the history thing. As a token of this weekend I now have a spot where if I need to sit and think/clear my head, I now have one (instead of just draining the thoughts out with loud music). It looks like paintings of Venice, well that’s what it made me think about. It’s quite peaceful and just beautiful.  

I’ve changed and I’m confusing. 

I have the end of the week to look forward to, I’m all mixed up about this weekend because I had a long weekend so I think I’m a day behind, which feels like shit, and then at the same time I think I’m a day ahead. So right now I’m thinking it’s Monday and Wednesday at the same time. There’s no such thing as Tuesday in my mind. 

:)

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Evening.

I hate feeling like this, like I’ve done something wrong just by mentioning what someone told me. I hate people getting up me because someone didn’t get their facts straight somewhere along the line, it’s all fucking Chinese whispers – I don’t want to hear them anymore, stop thinking I want to know. All it accomplishes is my brain over thinking everything and getting me all upset.

I bought Lady Gaga’s new album today :D 2 days early, I love our Sanity store. It’s very settling, and I find it kind of funny my favourite song is about Lesbian love. I don’t care, it’s an amazing song. Speaking of these songs, I drank this weekend and danced my little bum off to Gaga’s new songs. Was great fun…interpretive dancing.

Now I’m being a sad sack sitting at home listening to her and trying to type this blog. Hopefully I’m not disturbing my neighbours with my loud music.

Oh well.

:)

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This is how I feel right now, I’ve had the biggest day today chilling with Miss A all day, chatting, eating and bitching about work. Good fun. All I have to show for my good day is an even better headache that’s making me feel quite sick (oh and curly hair :) ). Doesn’t help that I’m listening to music loudly, but it’s Gaga so it’s all good. I got called slack because I’m not doing anything tonight, I did have plans but unfortunately god likes to just fuck around with my life sometimes and just ruin things. I’m sure I’ll get these plans completed another time.

Just wish this headache would go away.

I do have to recommend that people go watch ‘Water For Elephants’, because it was quite a lovely movie. It was sad and depressing and then happy and all over the place. But overall lovely.

That’s all ’cause I’m buggered.

:)

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Once again I’m left feeling unsure with things. Actually that’s a lie, I’m always unsure with everything…but I’m more certain about this unsureness and have come to realize that I’m not 100% in anymore, not that I really was at any stage, but it was nice. Just took some pointless conversations to put that into perspective for me. So that means a lot of thinking time for me. Speaking of such things, I’m considering getting my tattoo sometime soon. Just have to decide if I want to get it here or some other place, it’s only small and there’s no great amount of detail so it’s not hard to fuck up. Customers come through with the most unusual tattoos, some are quite awesome and others are just a bit random.

Hopefully this weekend goes as swell as I’m planning it to be, otherwise I’ll be pretty devo. I’ve made dinner and lunch dates, they’re quite the cutest ideas but yeah I’d like them to actually happen. ‘Cause that would just be the best.

I’m getting quite excited for Gaga’s new album, she continues to release more and more songs as a countdown towards the release of her album. Which I’m sure will be quite different and just lovely as always.

:)

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p.s – I found my anklet a little while ago, but it’s not my anklet anymore, it reminds me of awful stuff so I just don’t wear it, plus it was always falling off.

Sometimes I put myself into the most awkward of situations and I most rarely know how to get out of them. I hate being so awkward and shy in front of people I’m unsure about, I guess it makes sense though, but when they’re actually genuinely nice and I don’t know how to act around them…it’s just stupid.

I’ve just recently had the most pointless argument with some 15-year-old girl who doesn’t seem to know the difference between right and wrong, she was very hard to talk to and convince that she’s got a bad reputation already and she’s only FIFTEEN! My god, what has this generation come to when all they care about is how young they are when they do it and how many people they can do it with. Seriously, no respect for the ones that actually care about them, they just use people for their own enjoyment. Grrrr, they annoy me (this had nothing to do with the awkward situation as I mentioned above). Of course, she’s not the only one to blame, but oh well.

I seem to be in a pit of bad luck today, nothing at work was working with me…the computer broke, the conveyor belt stopped moving, I got caught in several places and I couldn’t remember what I was meant to bring home. Hopefully I’ll remember when I go back to work next. I did however fix all the computer/belt problems with some help of course.

I love it when I’m right about something, I mean who wouldn’t. But it’s not the best thing when you put yourself in a horrible situation knowing that it could potentially go wrong, when it does you’re happy you were right but then there’s that sinking feeling that something horrible has just happened and you could have prevented it by not putting yourself in the middle of it. Oh well, in a way I feel like I’ve accomplished something completely stupid, but at least it was fun (because that’s all I was really looking for).

:)

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